Today is a day of re-dedication to you. As we sharpen ourselves on ourselves, we forget not our focus. The denizens of this forsaken plane will pull and quarter our bodies from our souls. Thieves will shamelessly steal away with the good nature of our actions. We will be pressed like flowers for perfume.
However, when the stink of deception surrounds us, our swords will not break. Our shields will not crack, nor our armor flake. The humble warrior will pray, and spread low his body to the ground for the Lord, our God. In this, we shall be elevated beyond all fallibility and thrust forward to victory.
I struggle with myself. Who am I when half of me is gone? I look around for fulfillment. I seek to caulk the gaps between myself. I look to sin--it's nailed fingers stroking my back. Sin seeks to soften me and harden me. Sin seeks to change my skin. It longs to make its skin my skin. Sin will seek to skin me. It whispers to me.
My Lord, in times of trials--I look upwards to you. Lord press my shield close to chest, bind my wounds and beat the drums. Give me rest and the nourishment of the Savior's grace. Remind me of the oath I gave to never surrender my integrity, and to honor those whom push me forward. Lord, God, I drive the path of the Paladin's Promise: to illuminate, invigorate and uphold the name of all that is Holy.
I am done with the "pirate's life..." I packed up my little shanty cottage and moved north for greater adventure. It's the simple things in life that I value--and perhaps I can get back to my roots here in Georgia. If i was a beverage, you would take equal parts mohican, DeeDee Ramone, Nick Burns The Company Computer-Guy and Ace Ventura. Put that into a martini shaker with ice. Stir it like a mosh pit... but don't shake me like a baby--because that creates ice ships in the beverage that will end up diluting me. Then strain me into a cereal bowl. Don't waste your time with shapely and expensive glasses. I am built like a tub of popcorn and not delicate or presentable. Lastly, garnish me with some deoderant. I probably need some.